Sister Wives' Kody Brown 'regrets' not spending time with his son Garrison before his suicide

Sisterwives star Kody Brown spoke about the death of his and Janelle Brown's son Robert Garrison Brown and what he would do differently if he had the chance.

“The only thing I regret is using the time,” said 55-year-old Kody People in an interview published on Sunday, September 15. “I want to go out to eat again. I want to sit down. I want to have a beer. I want to [Garrison] to make me laugh because of how he was. My only regret is, gosh, I wish I did that more often.”

Garrison committed suicide in March at the age of 25. His death was essentially a wake-up call for him to spend more time with his loved ones and to prioritize those relationships, Kody said.

“Life is full of moments like that,” the father of 18 continued. “I recently went on a short trip with my brothers – and I almost didn't do it. I had something urgent to do and I had a brother's pass and I remember feeling like I had to go and see him first. And so I went on that trip with my brothers. I went and did it. There were other things that were urgent and I just said to myself, 'What if this is the last time?'”

Kody also said that his son's death made him take a closer look at what was really important in life and that he has now learned not to be “too petty” when it comes to disagreements with others. The TLC star admitted that he also regrets the divorces of three of his four wives.

“There is even regret about the divorce – Meri [Brown,] Janelle and Christine [Brown] – those divorces and the anger during those divorces,” Kody confessed. “Sure, I regret it.”

Most importantly, Kody didn't want to regret the death of a loved one and wanted to give his family a happy life, no matter what life they chose.

“There's always going to be a moment where you say, 'I wish I had taken the opportunity,' and then you regret it. But look, that's all over now and everyone's on the mend. And now we can move forward and just take the steps that will cause less regret,” the reality TV star admitted. “People gravitate to where they're comfortable, where they have joy and where they have fun. So I just hope that everyone is happy. I hope that all of my children get married and have children. That's what I hope. And I hope that they're happy in those places.”

Garrison died on March 5 from a self-inflicted gunshot wound, and the autopsy, which In contact In May it was revealed that alcohol poisoning had contributed to his death.

Sisterwives Season 18 showed the strained relationship between Kody and Garrison, as well as Kody's other son Gabe. The men had been at odds since the COVID-19 pandemic, and Janelle, 55, had even mentioned her concerts about Garrison before his death.

“[Garrison] He just seems angrier or sadder, like he's not as carefree as he used to be.”